So it is very, very early in the morning after a late night last night with a long day before it. I feel like a car who has the gas light on but the owner is driving on! I haven’t even been home for 8 hours a day this week so sleep is just not happening at this point. I am sure plenty of you out there can relate. One 14 hour day of work in a week is no big deal…but this whole week has been non-stop. I haven’t even had time to eat dinner this week (which is normally at the top of my priority list :P). When I woke up this morning I started crying because I was sooooo tried. I just ache all over, which is my body telling me to go back to bed! Sorry…I will stop complaining. I don’t have time too anyway 😛
What I am trying to figure out is if I should go to the show tomorrow. I had the most amazing show last night. Lucky was PERFECT. I have no idea how I got so lucky to have her peak on the day of a a championship show, but it was great!
When I went to bed last night I was 90% sure I wasn’t going. I am so tired that I am starting to make stupid mistakes. For example, I forgot to hose off the right half of Lucky. I hosed off her left side and went to sweat scrape her when I realized. Her owner thought it was cute…I was pretty upset with myself. At least I caught it right?
The only thing I would be doing instead of the show would be sleeping. They made my ride time at 8:13 so I would have to get up at 4:00 in order to get there on time. Last night if you asked me is sleep was more important than a show I would have said yes! I am so tired right now, but I am fighting through it today so I could fight through it tomorrow.
I don’t need to go to the show. Lucky was PERFECT last night so I feel ready for the other championships at the end of the month. There are only 3 people in my class though I would get a ribbon. But are 2 ribbons worth waking up at 4am? Especially since I will be going to bed late again because I would have to work late and then do all my show prep. But if I don’t go I will most likely loose my 2nd place in the standings. It looks like I am guaranteed a top 6 finish though, so do I care what color the ribbon it? I might loose that second place standing anyway even if I do go because the woman who always beats me will be there and the other person is currently in 4th but getting better every show and came in second last show.
I just don’t know what to do. I know that no matter what I will regret my decision…this is a no win situation for me. It is times like this where I wish I was a kid again so someone else could make the decision for me! Notice I still haven’t scratched so clearly part of me wants to go. The other part of me thinks I am crazy for even considering it…Is sleep more important than a show? What should I do!