So I sat down to write up my lesson yesterday, but I am just not ready to talk about it yet. Instead I will give you a hint as to how things went. I want to talk about the difference between loosing your nerve and lacking confidence.
When it comes to horses loosing your nerve is when you are afraid to ride. Loosing your confidence is different. It is when you don’t think you can handle riding a horses. Does that make sense? Let me try to clarify.
I have indeed lost my nerve before. In fact, I just lost my nerve last year when Phoenix was being a butt head over the winter. I was afraid to get on him and I would make excuses not to ride. When I could even talk myself in to tacking him up I would be a nervous wreck. My heart would start racing and I would physically feel how scared I was. There were shaking and sometimes tears. It literally felt like I would die every time I got on. Eventually with time those feelings got less and less and in what seemed like no time at all I was over it. I got my nerve back. The best way to get your nerve back is to just ride a safe horse and have supportive people around you. The more you ride the easier it gets to ride and eventually your nerve will come back.
A rider loosing confidence is something that does not happen to a lot of people. I would hazard a guess that most riders have lost their nerve at some point, but I don’t think that everyone has lost their confidence. To loose your confidence on horseback means that you don’t feel like you have the ability to ride, regardless of if you actually do or not. You are not physically scared to ride, it is more of a bad thought process that you do not think you can ride and thus you worry that you will not be able to handle a horses behavior. Unlike loosing your nerve there is no physical symptoms. Loosing your confidence is all in your head. When you horse starts to be naughty you automatically decide that you cannot handle it. Again, loosing your confidence may or may not have any basis in reality but at its core it is an emotional thing.
Right now I am suffering a loss of confidence. I don’t remember this happening to me before so I don’t know how to fix it. I feel so broken! I will try to write up my lesson. Just know it is hard for me because I don’t know how to fix my problem. At least I can define it though right?