Not only was Gen’s leg just as hot as it was yesterday, it was more swollen. I am freaking out. Even before I knew it wasn’t good I was already starting to get upset. Driving to the barn I started to hyperventilate and get nauseous because I was worried it might not be better. And now that I know it is not any better I want to crawl into a hole.
Why am I so upset? Gen’s problem with his tendon was the fact that when his tendon got injured instead of his body sending helpful blood cells to help heal it, his body began to attack his tendon. That happens pretty much NEVER in horses so there is not a lot if information out there on it. In fact, the only study ever done was the one that showed the 100% mortality rate in 1 year. Well as I have mentioned time and time again Gen beat the odds on that one. He lived past 1 year. In fact, we are only 17 days away from his 2 year anniversary. Thank you stem cells.
So I am freaking out right now because the symptoms are the same. The fact that there was no heat or swelling on day one would have been a good thing were it not for the fact that a day letter it was hot. What I am worried might have happened is that he had micro tears in his tendons and his body started to attack them. I am trying not to think like that though. Becuase it scares me. A lot. I know for a fact that if Gen’s body start to attack his tendon again that would be it. There is no cure and you can only cheat death so many times. So I am freaking out that it might be happening again because I am terrified at even the thought of loosing my pony. I love Gen so much. I don’t know what I would do without him.
I have managed to calm myself down some (I am not even crying as I type this) because the reality of the situation is just that it might not be that at all. His body might have just taken some time in reacting to all the stress. I called my vet and the game plan is a logical one. I iced, poulticed and wrapped Gen’s legs tonight. That should take care of any swelling. He is sound right now, but that is not a lot of comfort to me because he was sound last time too. I am just so scared. He got a gram of bute with dinner today just in case. Now the timing is TERRIBLE. Work this week is Hell…tomorrow I have to work 7:00am-8:30pm with only a 2 hour break. Considering the fact that Gen’s barn is over an hour and a half away from work there is no way I can see him. Of all days not to see him tomorrow is just a really bad one.
I cried pretty much the whole time I was at the barn today. I made myself stop at the end though because Gen started to get upset. I am not being very logical at all right now. Nothing might be wrong. My mind has just jumped to the worst case scenario. No matter what nothing is going to happen until tomorrow morning. The Wife at Hill Farm has the day off work so she promised to spend some time with Gen in the morning, wash off the poultice and see if there is any heat or swelling left. If so I am going to call the vet to come out and ultra sound Gen on Friday when hopefully I can be there. If there is no heat or swelling then I am just a drama queen and I will be SOOOOO happy.
So there is nothing I can do right now but pray. And let me tell you pray I will. I already can tell you that sleep is not happening. I am much too wound up and worried. I have already set up the pull out couch in the tv room so I can just zone out and try and forget how worried I am. It might be nothing. My horse might be fine. I just can’t let go of the fact that he might not be. Why did he have to run away on Monday?!!?!?! WHY! I am going to try and get myself to relax…and before anyone gets mad at me for not calling them about this…there is just no way. I tried to call my Mom to tell her and I lost it. Hysterically crying. I just want to forget how scared I am right now. I cannot imagine my life without Gen and I am hoping I wont have to. Please oh please let my horse be fine tomorrow.
Cyber hugs to you and Genny. We’re thinking good thoughts for you.
As Peter Pan said… “Think lovely things”.
General’s escapade might have caused a temporary inflammation. But don’t think the worst.
Much love…
Hang in there girl. I am sending positive healing thoughts all the way from Maine. Everything will be OK!
HUGS to you!
I know it’s hard for you not to freak out about this, but just wait and see what happens. You may be making yourself sick for nothing. You will know better what’s going on after the vet comes out to see him. In the meantime try to just think it will all be okay. Because odds are it probably will. I’ll be thinking of you two.
Prayers going your way baby. Lots of them.
My thoughts are with you, please stay strong and stay positive.
Genny has had a long time to heal. Maybe the reaction to his sudden burst of exertion is over and it will settle down to normal over the next several hours.
(((hugs to you)))
Hang in there girl! My thoughts are with you too…
Ace and I would like to send you and Genny a virtual “get well” and “cheer up” package. Ace asked me to put some pears in there for Gen (although he said he still can’t believe Gen eats the things). I put some chocolate in there for you. Ace also told me to put a big blue ribbon in there, since you are winners in our books. There are also some hugs from me and some horsey nickers from Ace. We wrapped it all in a blanket of prayers to get you through everything safely.
Praying!
I am so sorry. Thinking of you and sending hopeful thoughts.
I hope Gen is better, I know how it is to worry about a horse and feeling so helpless. Just try to give positive vibes, it will help him too. I haven’t visited ina while but trying to play catch up on all my blogs again.
Lori
I’ll pray for you and Gen.